I read a little quote a few days ago, which said: Action First, Motivation Follows. My excuses probably say otherwise, but I know that quote is so true!
These last few days I have been pushing myself more and more, trying to let go of the negative thoughts and excuses in my head. I am not going to lie, it is pretty hard. It is so easy to get convinced by your thoughts to do things the lazy way. However, I realise that the more I push myself and the more I just take action, the easier it becomes to find the motivation to do things.
Finding Joy In The Process
Last week I made the decision to just start learning to paint with watercolor. I have worked with watercolor in the past, but I realised that I was using it completely wrong. I only used one technique, when there are so many different techniques for different styles. Starting creative projects is always a hard thing for me, as my perfectionism strikes in. It causes me to doubt myself, which makes me not even want to try. However, this time I accepted the fact that I would probably fail a few times. I just took action and let go of any expectations.
Now that I let go of my perfectionism, my mindset completely changed. I looked at my mistakes as a way to improve my next work, instead of getting disappointed in myself and tearing the painting apart.
It feels good painting again, because I see the joy in improving, instead of only looking at the painting I made as a fail. In the beginning I had a lot of difficulty starting with painting because my motivation was literally at 0%. However, I pushed myself and quickly I found joy in the progress and I have been painting everyday ever since. I want to paint a bit everyday, so I can really improve my skills and I can create the things that I have in my head.
You can start again every single second of the day!
Today I woke up, excited for the new week. I had intended to go for a bike ride today, but when I opened the curtains it felt like all my motivation for the day just dropped. I have realised that because I have become such perfectionist, small things like this can ‘ruin’ my entire day. I have a certain idea of how my day should be, if one thing doesn’t turn out the way I planned, it feels like my day failed. That it is better if I start again tomorrow. But now that I am mindful of my behavior, it is way easier to catch myself. Yes, I might not be able to ride my bike, but that doesn’t mean that I have to sit behind my desk all day. I can go to the gym or do another kind of exercise inside. Even though I didn’t feel like going to the gym, I knew I had to go. Once at the gym, I enjoyed every second of it. Why my motivation before going is so low? I have no idea. However, what I do know is that I have to let go of these excuses and negative thoughts and just go!
If something in your life is holding you back from living your best life, you have to let go of it. This can be anything, an unhealthy lifestyle, people who make you feel bad about yourself, fear or excuses to do something.
I am still at the very beginning of my journey to getting back to being my best self. You should know that this journey definitely isn’t a linear journey. There are so many ups and downs we all have to face. Focus on the things that are going better than before, this gives you motivation to grow. Don’t look back at the things you didn’t do right in the past and move forward.
I would love to start a new series on my blog where I share a little update like this one on how my journey is going and what I did for things to change. I think that I would write a post like this every month, as it is a great time period to see change.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this topic in the comments. Have a beautiful week and don’t forget that you don’t have to start again on Monday. You can make the decision to change every single second of the day!