After taking an almost 3 week break, I am back! As much as I loved having a little break, I really did miss blogging and interacting with all of you. So I can’t wait to hear from you again.
A few weeks back I realised that I needed a break to take time think, reflect and make a plan to change my life. You can read an in more depth explanation in my blogpost: ‘Taking A Little Break + Explanation’
During this break I learned so much about myself and life in general. Hopefully the things that I am going to share with you today give you some insight too.
Create A Purpose
I went to Spain for a week together with my best friend to take some pictures and do volunteering work on a horse sanctuary. It was super interesting and it felt so good to be able to help a charity like that. It was such a beautiful experience which was such a big part of changing my mindset. It showed me that I want to have a purpose again, to find my own purpose and work on that. Now that I have a gap year, I feel pretty useless, because I don’t have something I put all my attention towards. This trip has shown me that I can create my own purpose and I can’t wait to figure out what that is for me.
Have More Balance
The weeks before I started the break I felt like it was important to publish a lot of content on my blog. I wanted to stick to my schedule of publishing on Monday, Wednesday and Saturday. However, during my break I realized that this schedule just isn’t really working for me. When I am in a phase where I absolutely love blogging, it is easy for me to write three times a week, however now that I want to focus on more things in my life like singing, acting etc. I feel that three times is just too much. It starts to feel more like something that has to be done than something that gives me joy. I wrote posts just to stick to my schedule. I don’t want to do this anymore because I realise that I am not fully creating what I want. From now on I will be writing once or twice a week. This way I can be more consistent with my content, instead of feeling like needing a break from blogging all together.
I don’t only want to create more balance when it comes to my blog. I think I just need more balance in general. I want to fully focus on tasks for a certain amount of time and have free time at the end of the day. This last year I have been mixing focusing and relaxing at the same time, which didn’t get me anywhere. So that is definitely something I want to work on.
Be More Mindful
During my break I have been focusing on meditation and being more mindful in general. Since doing that I have seen small things change. Today for example I had a conversation with a stranger but she didn’t understand what I was saying. After the conversation thoughts wanted to pop up in my mind: ‘You are so stupid, you didn’t say things in a clear way’ ‘Next time you can better say nothing at all, because you always make mistakes like this.’ However, I was mindful of my thoughts and just paused. I told myself that I need to let it go and next time it will go better. I felt so good afterwards and enjoyed the rest of my walk instead of dwelling on it.
I have to say that I have always had a lot of problems when it comes to changing my thoughts, and I still do. However, I am grateful for moments like these where I am able to be mindful. This way it only becomes easier to pause myself next time.
In the next few weeks I want to keep practicing mindfulness by doing meditation practices, writing in my journal, reflecting on experiences and meditations and just being mindful throughout the day.
Stop Distracting, Start Acting.
I need to stop distracting myself from life. I feel that I have been using social media and food to make the time go faster, to distract myself from what is going on with me within. There are so many things I want to do, but I never do because I am scared. Scared that it won’t be perfect, thinking that I am not good enough, that other people will always better. However, if I don’t try I will never know. If I don’t start, I will never become better. If I don’t do it, it is never able to make me happy.
Now that my break is over, I am going to spend some time making it really clear for myself how I want my life to be. I am going to start visualizing and I will be acting on it every day. Now that spring is finally here, I feel so much more motivated already and I can’t wait to take control of my life.
I want to thank you all for sticking around and for reading my blog.
I can’t wait to talk to you very soon!