I will be honest, 2017 was not my favourite year. However, that has caused me to be really motivated for 2018. On the 31st of December I really wanted to let go of that year, bad habits and things that don’t do me good anymore. In 2018 I am going on a journey of finding myself again, treating myself and my body right. Feeling beautiful in my skin, feeling confident and motivated.
There used to be a time in my life where I truly loved myself, where I could enjoy the beautiful little moments, where I went out of the house to see, feel and smell nature. Where I would have passions, where I had dreams. I want to go back………… no ‘I am going back’! Don’t dream about it, make it happen! That is really what I have to say to myself over and over again! I have to get back to believing in myself, not worrying what other people think or say about me. It is my life, my body, my journey and I have the power to create a life that ‘I’ love, not a life that people around me say that it should be. Because that is what caused me to be where I am right now. Don’t get me wrong I am grateful that it happened this way, because now I truly understand I can not keep caring about what other people think of me, because that will never bring me where I want to be.
The last few weeks I have been working on setting goals for the New Year. Every year I set way to many goals for myself, so I can never achieve them. However this year there is one thing that I really want to focus on and that is living that healthy and lifestyle that I used to live. Eating 100% whole foods, exercising more again and something that is just as important, my mental health. Fitting in moments for self-care in the week, getting back to being motivated about life. I really want to start blogging more again, even though I know a busy time is coming soon. However, it truly helped me to really enjoy little moments, connect with like-minded people and live a beautiful lifestyle, which is something I truly need right now. Incorporating things into my life that I used to do when I was at my happiest are a great way for me to get enthusiastic again and to push myself to live a positive life.
When I started my health journey 6 years ago I was so motivated and I truly did it because I wanted to feel great and energized. My healthy lifestyle was a form of self-care and self-acceptance. During my health journey I felt so good about life and the person that I was. However, this last one and a half-year, things changed. I had difficulty living my healthy lifestyle, I started to feel really bad about myself and created very unhealthy habits around food. I started binge eating, which has caused my entire lifestyle to change. I started to forget why I started a healthy lifestyle in the first place, why I loved my lifestyle and veganism so much. Veganism gave me so much, compassion towards others, a connection with nature and animals, motivation to be a better person. However, when my lifestyle started to change all these things changed too. I have been vegan all that time, but my enthusiasm and compassion decreased. I can’t wait to feel enthusiastic and great again, but I know I have to push myself to get there. It’s hard to push yourself when a voice in your head just tells you that it is so much easier to do nothing all day, but I have to keep in mind how great things felt 2 years ago.
Even though I find it hard to talk about this topic because it is pretty personal, I do think that it is important to share. I know that everyone has hard things they have to deal with in life, things they want to change. I want you all to know that you have the power to change your life. Make a plan, believe in yourself! If this is really what you want, you can make it happen. If you fail, keep trying! I truly hope that 2018 will be a beautiful year for all of you! You can do it!