No matter if you have depression, anxiety disorder, OCD, an eating disorder or no specific mental health problem at all. ‘Feed’ is a movie you have to watch!
Last night I was scrolling through the Internet when I came across a trailer from the movie ‘Feed’. My instinct told me to watch the full movie and I definitely did not regret it. The story is about a twin brother and sister (Matthew and Olivia) who have a very close connection. One day Matthew has a car accident and dies. Olivia had a lot of trouble dealing with the loss of her brother and starts to develop anorexia. In her mind Matthew is with her all the time, telling her what to do.
What I think is beautiful visualised in this movie is the voice in your head which is part of most mental disorders. If that is a voice telling you to not eat or that there are bacteria all around you which all make you very sick. Dealing with this voice is one of the most difficult things I have ever had to deal with.
Especially the last few months I have been having difficulty dealing with this voice in my head. I have always wanted to understand why this voice talks to me, always thought that it was stronger than me and that I have to surrender to the voice, that there is nothing I can do. A few months ago I read the book Brain over Binge, this book showed me that there is a lower and a higher brain. The lower brain is the voice in your head, the one who gives you urges and ‘tells you what to do’. The higher brain is the one that actually causes actions, who makes you walk, talk etc. The lower brain is not able to create an action, only YOU can do that. Reading that book really was an eye-opener to me. It showed me that I am the creator of my own life, my own actions. That my emotions, thoughts and urges can’t control my life. They are not the one who can create actions, only I can.
However, even though I knew this, I had a lot of problem using this in my own life. I am a visual thinker and I just didn’t really have a clear vision of how it worked. That is where ‘Feed’ came in. This movie visualizes the voice in your head just perfectly. I shows that the voice is extremely strong, that it makes you feel like you have no choice, that it only shuts up when you give it what it wants. However, listening to him only makes you feel worse. YOU have all the power, you can create action, you can change your life!
I think that watching ‘Feed’ is a great way for people with mental health issues to understand what is happening and how they can deal with it. However it is also a beautiful movie for family members and friends who have someone who suffers with issues like this, so they can understand what is going on in there head.